Frustration turns into another lesson

It's going to be hard keeping up with the blog over the holidays. Thanksgiving was great and crazy and fun and my brother brought over the new Call of Duty World at War 2, which I is much better than the last World at War. Anyway, I'm not going to talk about Thanksgiving. Our women's ministry at church is putting on a Christmas Tea this week and I'm writing a skit for the programming. I have done a lot with the Women's Ministry at our church in the past, but a lot has changed. Without going into detail, the job I used to enjoy immensley is now very frustrating and I'd rather not be involved at all at this point. I know from years of hard lessons that when I'm frustrated or angry it usually has as much to do with me as the people I'm frustrated with. The lesson I'm learning is that I used my talent in the past for myself. I used my gift of writing in order to move people emotionally and although that isn't a bad thing in itself, I realized that I was not using my gift for God. I was using my gift to feel good about myself. Now that my identity is not wrapped up in my writing, I don't have the same desire to do the work of writing a skit and trying to make the program work. So, in order to do it I need to focus on doing this work for God. I'm no longer doing it for myself or my own ego. I'd rather stay home and watch tv or work on my fantasy football team for the playoffs. I need to use my gifts for God, which is why I should have been doing it all along. But since I wasn't and I didn't understand that, I guess God is again using a bad situation to teach me some really important lessons.