Anyone for Frog Legs?

Sometimes hindsight is 20/20.  I go through cycles of chaos and calmness.  The cycle actually fluctuates from chaos to more chaos with an ocassional calmn moment sprinkled here and there.  Since last summer when I decided to get a part time job to pay for my full time school to get my Alcohol/Drug Counselor's license my chaos has been steadily building.  It's like the frog happily swimming in a pan of lukewarm water.  As the heat rises slowly he doesn't notice he's in trouble until the water is boiling and someone gets to eat some yummy frog legs.  This past weekend I felt like I was in the pan of boiling water.  I figured out something was wrong when I noticed it was four o'clock in the afternoon and I hadn't eaten yet.  I wasn't even hungry, because my stomach was in knots.  Later that night I was doing some editing on my memoir when I read some key dialogue from my therapist, "you know you can always come in anytime you feel the need."  I stopped editing and immediately e-mailed my therapist for an appointment.  Why didn't I think of that earlier?!  I don't know but I'm glad God uses many different things and people to get my attention. 

I met with Jen yesterday and even though it should be obvious to me by now, I found out I wasn't taking care of myself.  I've learned this lesson more than a dozen times, but I've found that many of the lessons I learn don't stick.  Whether I've forgotten them or part of me doesn't want to learn them, I need other people to help me get back on track.  My anxiety level went from a 9 out of 10 over the weekend to a 6 now.  I think I can get it down even further after I follow the plan Jen and I made to take care of myself.  Less is better.  That's always a good rule for me, but if the world is like a candy store, I'm the kid with a sweet tooth and I can't get enough!  I guess if I did get everything figured out and I recognized every red flag and detour I wouldn't need any help from anyone and I don't think that's the goal God has in mind for me.  Maybe the goal is to accept the things I cannot change and ask for help when I need it.