I was really looking forward to summer vacation so we could all sleep in a little and relax. I think I put 400 miles on my car this week. We have activities scheduled all summer right up through the first week of school in September, and between family and friends there are so many emotional things going on right now divorce and addiction have become everyday conversation. I just ate 12 little candy orange slices and my stomach hurts; a sure sign of stress. While I was in the car today I plugged in my Garmin - the thing that tells you how to get to places. It asked me, "Where to?" I typed in San Diego, CA. It calculated my trip and told me to turn right on 70th street to Hwy 61. I went straight, so it recalculated and told me to take a right on 80th street. I took a left. It recalculated. We kept doing this all the way to Menards. Menards is a long way from the ocean. I knew I was going to Menards, but I wanted to drive away somewhere and get away from the phone and my e-mail and my kid's schedules and any other responsibility I have. That's when I realized I need some boundaries and a vacation this summer. The vacation doesn't have to be big or expensive, but I need to plan something to look forward to. And I need to put boundaries on my schedule. Just because I don't have deadlines or work hours I can't just allow my day to be eaten up by constant urgencies and last minute plans. I need to block out time for myself, for my writing, for errands and housework and put a limit on playing taxi mom. And maybe I'll turn my computer off and take my phone off the hook too! Hmmm... tomorrow could be the beginning of a really fun summer.
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