I miss summer. I mowed the grass for the first time since my kids went back to school. It's different when all the neighborhood kids are out playing and dads are grilling and there's still 4 more hours of sunlight after dinner. Later, while I was cleaning the garage I found some Christmas lights and for as much as I procrastinate, I even started thinking about Christmas presents! My kids are ecstatic for winter to start because they love snow boarding, but I'm not as enthusiastic, so when I feel down about the sun setting earlier I start thinking about something I love. I got out some of the pictures I've been wanting to put up and I framed them and got them on the wall. I also like to think about the future, like having a home in the south somewhere so we can fly away for the winter. I usually force myself to "stay in the moment". It's one of the skills I learned in therapy, but for cases like this when staying in the moment means feeling depressed, I find a new moment to stay in. So, as I go up to bed I'll smell the fresh ocean breeze coming through the window and I'll sleep soundly to the ocean waves, made possible by my husband's sleep apnea machine. It's all about perspective.
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