I went running today for the first time in weeks. I forgot how good it is for me, not just physically, but mentally. I didn't make it far because I have an extra twenty pounds and no endurance, but just getting out in the sun and away from everything was worthwhile. Besides the fresh air, there's something about running the same route over and over for thirteen years that makes me feel...secure, safe, grounded. 
I don't like change and there have been a lot of changes in my life lately. At the end of our year long Bible study, I took a full time job and started school. Andy started driving this summer. I just signed Jenna up for driver's ed and she'll be going to high school next year and Johnny won't stop growing. I keep telling myself I'm a forward thinker. I tell myself that I don't dwell on the past, because I'm always looking to the future, but I've found myself staring at pictures of my kids when they were little. There are so many things about my life that I love, like the quiet evenings watching a movie with my family before bed. I love being home alone after everyone leaves in the morning. I love coffee, lunch, walks and movies with my super good friends. I don't want it to change! But it is, so I have to put my pictures away, do some homework for my class, get a job, look for another car for these kids who are going everywhere and maybe check out a motorcycle because I think I'm about to go through a mid-life crisis.
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